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INTERNATIONAL STORY Continued from page 3 a sensitivity to that,” he says. “There needs to be a love for both characters, and I think people love them as actors. We needed that in a dark story.” The darkness of Banshees is something that sneaks up on you. Like In Bruges, this film features wicked one-liners and grisly moments of amputation – but there’s a quiet maturity to this tragicomedy, making it one of the most moving screenplays of the year. Colm, a passionate fiddle player who is a decade older than Pádraic, feels he’s nearing the end of his life with nothing to show for it. This permeating sense of despair, and the fear of wasted time, is something everyone on the island feels, but cannot express. “That’s there, the nature of men quite a lot,” McDonagh says, pointing to a scene where Pádraic wonders why Colm “doesn’t just push [his depression] down, like the rest of us.” “As we know these days, it’s probably not for the best!” McDonagh laughs. “I think the film isn’t doing that. The film is saying do talk about it because the film talks about it. it. “She is probably the one who sees everything clearly from the outside and sees the stupidity of what’s going on and the male ego,” McDonagh explains. “I wanted to bring those eyes to the story. She’s the voice of conscience in the movie and the voice of hope.” After viewing this film – filled with portents of death, and COLIN FARRELL AND BRENDAN GLEESON IN THE FILM THE BANSHEES OF INISHERIN. PHOTO COURTESY OF SEARCHLIGHT PICTURES. © 2022 20TH CENTURY STUDIOS ALL RIGHTS RESERVED Hopefully, men will open up a bit more about that sort of stuff. I mean, it’s a lesson to me to do it, too. I’m as much of a culprit.” A counterpoint to the machoism is Pádraic’s sister Siobhán (the luminous Kerry Condon, who starred in McDonagh’s play The Lieutenant of Inishmore), the only character who truly has the courage to lean into change, even as she fears questions of what we leave behind – it’s hard not to wonder if McDonagh feels the same existential anxiety. “Very much so, I definitely think about – legacy is too heavy a word – but you do want to put things [that last] out there,” he says. “But not in the same way that [Colm] feels, where you have to devote every minute of your life to it in such a harsh way. I think you can be a happy person and a nice person and make films like this, too. “I’m a ‘happy lad’ like Colin Farrell, most of the time, and I can still come out with sad things like this!” ■ Courtesy of The Big Issue Australia / International Network of Street Papers BLESSINGS IN DISGUISE: THE SAGA OF LIVING AND SURVIVING CONTINUES BY TARIQ JOHNSON Tariq Johnson is all too familiar with the vicious cycle that individuals can end up in when they face financial and housing insecurity and issues related to addiction. Thanks to support from the Salvation Army and the Positive Direction Equals Change program, he is housed, working, and enjoying reconnecting with his family. But the last few years haven’t been easy. THE SAGA OF LIVING AND SURVIVING HOMELESSNESS continues. Just when I got comfortable in my stabilization room it seemed like my past hit me again—it was like déjà vu. The bed bugs started to come out the ceiling on the fourth floor where my room was, and when I turned off the lights at night they began to bite. I was shocked cuz I knew this would be the beginning of a long fight. I started filing complaints, buying expensive bed bug spray, throwing things away. The eggs started popping up, and I knew I had to move out of there. They gave me a room downstairs, which was smaller, but no bugs. It had DirecTV, a brand-new bed, space heater, and fan. So once again my prayers were answered. I had a venous ulcer in my leg, so at least I didn’t have to climb those stairs to the fourth floor anymore. My room was right next to the garbage room, so I kept it clean. I got an in-home care nurse to come and help me take care of the open wound on my 4 DENVER VOICE January 2023 foot, and having a refrigerator and microwave helped me heal, slowly but surely. The problem was the rooms were both stabilization rooms. They let me stay there for a year, which was a blessing. But time flew by, and I was not able to find housing or a shelter. Time was not on my side. Shit! The blessing and curse of being forced back into homelessness hit me again. It was wintertime, and that’s the worst time to be in the streets. I started using drugs again to get by—the street life put me back in survival mode. I put most of my stuff in a friend’s garage. So all I had was a backpack with the bare necessities. I slept in BART stations to keep warm and dry. I was a heroin addict with the host of cocaine on my brain. The only thing that rescued me from insanity was my faith in God and humanity. It was a cold and wet winter night, with brutal non-stop rain for days. Me and a lady friend shared a doorway with a big umbrella and a tarp over a shopping cart. We had blankets, but it was the coldest night of the year, and we were shaking and shivering. Then, a dude begged us to let him in. We looked at each other and decided, why not? Then another guy I knew for some time walked by and I had to let him in cause he didn’t have a coat. He was shaking and shivering, too. So we all got up under the tarp and even though the rain was coming down hard we were all dry. We built a fire by pouring hand sanitizer in a can and put it in the middle of the circle. Everyone was laughing and joking, then this guy came by with a backpack of snacks for $4. We all put a dollar in, and it was like we were camping, and it was warm under the tarp. We all looked out for each other, and we made it through the coldest night of the year. We all prayed and thanked God for blessing us. As the sun rose the next day, we cleaned up our area and went on our merry way. It felt so good to come together with folks you barely knew and survive a storm and live to see the next day. This gave me strength, faith, motivation, and determination to become proactive in getting help with my addiction and getting off the streets. I got into the Salvation Army detox center and started putting in some work on my recovery. This opened a whole new life for me to stabilize and replace bad habits with good habits. This took time and daily practice, praying, exercising, going to meetings, and eating healthy vegetarian meals. My biggest transition was getting my glasses because I have a visual impairment that has been deteriorating over the past 10 years. My daughter and my son were really worried about me going blind. Even though we live miles away, this brought us closer together. We started communicating daily, and then the rest of my family started to reconnect with me. The family that prays together stays together, and the blessings begin to unfold. ILLUSTRATION BY SONYA KATCHER I began to approach life with a positive mindset. One step at a time and one day at a time. Now I’m in a program called Positive Direction Equals Change. This has been a very instrumental part of me maintaining my perseverance, peace, faith, progress, prosperity, and purpose to make this crazy, mixed-up world a better place. I got a job working for a vegan catering company, and my body oil business is doing well and expanding. Now I have my own room with a shower and sink and toilet in it. I’m so grateful to lay in my bed, look out the window to see the stars shine at night and the sunrise in the morning. I really thank God for the love, peace, beauty, and happiness that he is showing me in this crazy mixed-up world we live in! The new beginnings of blessings came from what was a Curse with a blessing in disguise ■ Courtesy of Street Sheet / International Network of Street Papers

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